Imagine....
...you've gone through life dating a bunch of girls and none of them have turned out right. Then after years and years, decades upon decades of searching, yearning, praying... she shows up. Out of the blue.
You two hit it off. You're best friends. Kindred spirits. Soul mates. If you two were any more perfect for one another, it must be because you're Adam and she's Eve. Two years of the hottest most volcanic relationship and just when you think it can't get any better... you break up. It was an amicable break up. Things happen. People change and so do you. But you will never, ever forget those two magical years together.
You don't forget until you find out she's now dating someone else -- which is fine. You knew she was eventually going to find someone. But now...
She's dating your mortal enemy. The bully that's picked on you all your life. The jerk that not only messes with you... but messes with anyone associated with you. The jerk that lives for the purpose of making your life miserable. She, whom you once loved with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your mind and with all your strength.... is now frolicking with the enemy.
Sigh.... why did you have to go? Why.... WHY!?.... OF ALL THE PLACES...WHY GO THERE!?!?!?!?
Mood: betrayed
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Sunday, November 28, 2010
Personally Speaking - Revisited
Two days left prior to the deadline to submit personal statements to the UC system... I have a feeling a few more will trickle in. Procrastinators...gotta love 'em.
A bit tired from all this proofreading so what better than to re-post my thoughts from exactly a year ago...from my own archives: Personally Speaking Nov 26, 2009:
A bit tired from all this proofreading so what better than to re-post my thoughts from exactly a year ago...from my own archives: Personally Speaking Nov 26, 2009:
That time of the year again... the time of the year to give thanks, to eat too much and to start proofreading personal statements. This is something I absolutely love to do. I leave reading people's writings. Not the boring expository stuff.. but the personal stuff. The stuff that shows me what you've been through and where you want to go. I'm a big fan of blogs btw... so if you have a blog and I'm not reading it, drop the URL and I'll bookmark you. =)
I'm always surprised by the PS from our students. My PS can not even try to compare with theirs. These PS's have stories about opening their own businesses...or going on an archeological excavation. It actually has substance. Mine was about a little summer program where I volunteered to teach summer school. =)
And in a sense, I feel like the old woman who can only donate two coins to the offering. Or the little boy who brough Jesus the original 5 loaves and 2 fishes. I don't have a lot to bring to the table.. but I'll bring whatever I have, and I'm sure the Lord will multiply. Until next year...
Mood: buzzed
Thursday, November 11, 2010
苦盡甘來
我花了年幾, 努力耕種的一句說話, "囡囡最錫爸B B B B!!" 終於有收成! 某一天, 在回家過程中, 我照常大聲話, "囡囡最錫..........." 但今次答"爸B B B B!!" 並非自己, 而是已懂事, 已長大的囡囡豬!! 真是苦盡甘來. 我年多的口水不是白費的!
斷估唔到, 一山還又一山高. 當我笑到見牙唔見眼時, 當我再話"囡囡最錫..........." 但求想聽多次我心肝寶貝說真心話, 竟然有人大聲哎, "MA MA!"
可憐的天真小囡囡，在驚恐之下，她只可被迫跟某人說 "mmma mmma."
自從這次的經歷，可愛的囡囡豬已不敢再說"囡囡最錫爸B B B B!!" 她現在會說的，就只有"囡囡最錫奶奶."
但我深信，不論她口裡說乜，她心裡一定最錫爸B B B B！
Mood: 飄飄然
斷估唔到, 一山還又一山高. 當我笑到見牙唔見眼時, 當我再話"囡囡最錫..........." 但求想聽多次我心肝寶貝說真心話, 竟然有人大聲哎, "MA MA!"
可憐的天真小囡囡，在驚恐之下，她只可被迫跟某人說 "mmma mmma."
自從這次的經歷，可愛的囡囡豬已不敢再說"囡囡最錫爸B B B B!!" 她現在會說的，就只有"囡囡最錫奶奶."
但我深信，不論她口裡說乜，她心裡一定最錫爸B B B B！
Mood: 飄飄然
Tuesday, November 09, 2010
Careful when Coddling...
Recently, Nui-nui hasn't been drinking water from her pink Hello Kitty thermos or My Melody thermos. So we resorted to using a medicine dropper to keep her hydrated. Well tonight... I decided to give her the non-spill cup we bought a while back. We bought it b/c it looked cute...but upon trying it, both Joyce and I could barely suck the water out. So we thought Nui-nui wouldn't take to its liking. Lo and behold... she inhaled half of the water in a matter of seconds!
And it got me thinking... sometimes, kids want a challenge. And if we as parents assume they're lazy... then our assumption will quickly come to pass. So let's give our kids a little challenge... maybe they'll surprise us!
And in a way... isn't that what our Abba Father is trying to do to us? He wants us to surpass our limits because He wants us to grow. We shouldn't shudder away whenever there's an impediment or obstacle... or a sippy cup that's especially hard to drink from. We ought to embrace the challenge and be thankful He's helping us grow...
Take heart my friend... your challenges is a blessing.
Mood: enlightened
And it got me thinking... sometimes, kids want a challenge. And if we as parents assume they're lazy... then our assumption will quickly come to pass. So let's give our kids a little challenge... maybe they'll surprise us!
And in a way... isn't that what our Abba Father is trying to do to us? He wants us to surpass our limits because He wants us to grow. We shouldn't shudder away whenever there's an impediment or obstacle... or a sippy cup that's especially hard to drink from. We ought to embrace the challenge and be thankful He's helping us grow...
Take heart my friend... your challenges is a blessing.
Mood: enlightened
Monday, November 08, 2010
Afterthoughts of Halloween 2010
Been a bit preoccupied with the other Orange and Black... haven't gotten to releasing my afterthoughts of Halloween 2010.
This has been an extremely tough year. We waffled on dressing Nui-nui up as a cupcake or a lady bug - something that's soooo adorable, it can't possibly be celebrating the holiday. But in the end, we felt as the salt and light of our community, we needed to stand firm in our faith.
When the Daycare Lady asked us what costume Nui-nui will be wearing, we told her flat out - "We don't do halloween. And we would like it if you don't involve her in any of the celebration."
The week of Halloween, all the kids at daycare were making jack-o-lanterns with little pumpkins. They were making little art projects with ghosts and bats. Nui-nui wasn't involved.
And the Friday before Halloween, they all wore costumes and took pictures. My daughter wore what she wore to day care - but was included in the pictures. One of the pictures had her staring at a boy dressed up as Darth Vader holding a light saber. And Nui-nui had a huge smile on her face - it completely broke my heart.
Without being to put a true caption to the picture, I can only sum it up as "Baby Girl Envies Baby Boy Having Lots of Fun." Something to that effect. I felt like I was withholding basic joy and happiness from my precious daughter. What a horrible parent. Wait till she gets to school and really has to meet peer pressure head on. God's grace is all I can hang onto right now.
The night of Halloween was just as challenging. Normally, we would scoot to dinner or a bookstore and stay out as late as possible to avoid the trick or treaters. This year, the stinken World Series was on so we were stuck! You'd think the kids would get a clue when they see the lights are off - but nope - they still came up and knocked and rang our door bell.
Anderson and the Gal Pal were over to watch the World Series with us... and all 5 of us had to duck behind chairs and coffee tables to avoid being seen. And even then... the kids will say, "We know you're in there!" or "I saw them move!"
What am I afraid of...? Why can't I open the door and hand them some candy and be over with? Or better yet... hand them some toothpaste? Or even better... share with them the truth behind Halloween? Why did we have to be so surreptitious?
This is gonna keep happening for years to come and the challenges will continue to mount. But as for me and my family, "We will not compromise. We will stand in the gap. We will choose Jesus, every day of our lives."
Mood: empty
This has been an extremely tough year. We waffled on dressing Nui-nui up as a cupcake or a lady bug - something that's soooo adorable, it can't possibly be celebrating the holiday. But in the end, we felt as the salt and light of our community, we needed to stand firm in our faith.
When the Daycare Lady asked us what costume Nui-nui will be wearing, we told her flat out - "We don't do halloween. And we would like it if you don't involve her in any of the celebration."
The week of Halloween, all the kids at daycare were making jack-o-lanterns with little pumpkins. They were making little art projects with ghosts and bats. Nui-nui wasn't involved.
And the Friday before Halloween, they all wore costumes and took pictures. My daughter wore what she wore to day care - but was included in the pictures. One of the pictures had her staring at a boy dressed up as Darth Vader holding a light saber. And Nui-nui had a huge smile on her face - it completely broke my heart.
Without being to put a true caption to the picture, I can only sum it up as "Baby Girl Envies Baby Boy Having Lots of Fun." Something to that effect. I felt like I was withholding basic joy and happiness from my precious daughter. What a horrible parent. Wait till she gets to school and really has to meet peer pressure head on. God's grace is all I can hang onto right now.
The night of Halloween was just as challenging. Normally, we would scoot to dinner or a bookstore and stay out as late as possible to avoid the trick or treaters. This year, the stinken World Series was on so we were stuck! You'd think the kids would get a clue when they see the lights are off - but nope - they still came up and knocked and rang our door bell.
Anderson and the Gal Pal were over to watch the World Series with us... and all 5 of us had to duck behind chairs and coffee tables to avoid being seen. And even then... the kids will say, "We know you're in there!" or "I saw them move!"
What am I afraid of...? Why can't I open the door and hand them some candy and be over with? Or better yet... hand them some toothpaste? Or even better... share with them the truth behind Halloween? Why did we have to be so surreptitious?
This is gonna keep happening for years to come and the challenges will continue to mount. But as for me and my family, "We will not compromise. We will stand in the gap. We will choose Jesus, every day of our lives."
Mood: empty
Monday, November 01, 2010
And in the end... only one was standing
November 1, 2010 ~7:30PM PDT.
Strike 3 - Swing and a miss!!
56 years of futility finally comes to an end!! Jumping! Screaming!
Tossing Rachel up and down!
Falling on my knees.
Watching my team swarm the mound.
My biggest fear - the fear of dying before winning a World Series - is forever put to bed.
I was numbed...I didn't know how to feel... how to react.
2 and a half hours later around 10PM.... it finally sinks in. We won. It's that simple.
Tears started streaming. Manly tears, tears of joy, tears of exhaustation, tears that were stored up since '87 against the Cards... '89 when we got swept... '93 at 103 wins... '97 against the Fish... '98 and the Cubs... 2000 and the Mets... 2002 and Game 6, 5 outs... 2003 wire to wire to be tagged by the Fish again... the post Bonds years..... all the years of ridicule, of enduring mockery, of enduring mediocrity. That's what my tears are made of.
Where were you on the night of November 1, 2011??? Who were you with? What were you doing? If you don't know... lemme tell you!!! That was the night the Giants won the World Series and became World Champions!!!!
Mood: not quite sure how I should feel...
Strike 3 - Swing and a miss!!
56 years of futility finally comes to an end!! Jumping! Screaming!
Tossing Rachel up and down!
Falling on my knees.
Watching my team swarm the mound.
My biggest fear - the fear of dying before winning a World Series - is forever put to bed.
I was numbed...I didn't know how to feel... how to react.
2 and a half hours later around 10PM.... it finally sinks in. We won. It's that simple.
Tears started streaming. Manly tears, tears of joy, tears of exhaustation, tears that were stored up since '87 against the Cards... '89 when we got swept... '93 at 103 wins... '97 against the Fish... '98 and the Cubs... 2000 and the Mets... 2002 and Game 6, 5 outs... 2003 wire to wire to be tagged by the Fish again... the post Bonds years..... all the years of ridicule, of enduring mockery, of enduring mediocrity. That's what my tears are made of.
Where were you on the night of November 1, 2011??? Who were you with? What were you doing? If you don't know... lemme tell you!!! That was the night the Giants won the World Series and became World Champions!!!!
Mood: not quite sure how I should feel...
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