Saturday, January 30, 2021

怎去猜想這夢會變真 - 2021

COVID19 - School Closure - Day 157  School Reopens - Day 152

Is this really happening?? Is another dream of my going to come true?? (Not the dream from last night, btw... though, that would be an amazing dejavu if it does happen)

I'm a little skeptical this time.  This time the level of difficulty has surged.  And the people just don't have the talent or dedication as the cast from the Two Lost Sons.  Oh me... oh my...  But as I told Ken and Hody... at the end... if this all goes to down the drain... I had fun doing it.  No harm, no foul.  Easy come, easy go.

21 days to showtime....

Friday, January 29, 2021

Power of Words

COVID19 - School Closure - Day 157  School Reopens - Day 151

Dreamnt of a VP last night. We were at some professional gathering and I saw with him and a bunch of folks from work. As he got up to leave... he came back and put his hand on my shoulder. He asked me, "Hank... what do you think will be the last words said before the world comes to an end?"

Without missing a beat... (in my dream), I said that, "There is a dichomoty of everything. The Yin to the Yang. The Good to the Bad. The Black to the White. And since the first words spoke upon the creation is 'Light' (Gen 1:3), the last word to be said will be 'Dark.' "

Dang... I woke up and even I was impressed with myself.  HA! 

Wednesday, January 27, 2021

Cancel Culture

 COVID19 - School Closure - Day 157  School Reopens - Day 149

It's been reported that the San Francisco Board of Education voted to rename a number of schools that bore names of "American Heroes" that have a checkered past. George Washington is no longer the Founding Father... but the 1st President who was a slave owner. Abraham Lincoln, the man who literally freed slavery treated Indigenous People unfairly. Senator Diane Feinstein, a woman who pioneered the breakage of the glass ceiling, chose to raise the Confederate Flag at a Government Building of her hometown San Francisco. What are we teaching our children? That no one is exempted? What are we teaching our children about perfection? About forgiveness.

Ironically... I brought this up in a training session with a bunch of other leaders at work. Stating that societal forces are changing our work... our future. Hours later... I realized that there was an African American person in that group. I wonder what she was thinking when I made those remarks.

Monday, January 25, 2021

Slider

COVID19 - School Closure - Day 157  School Reopens - Day 147

The family was on the couch watching TV.... I come crashing down next to Joyce after another long day.  I kick off my slippers to let my toesies get some air.  And she aptly makes a sour face... takes the throw and covers my feet.

"I'm sorry. I have sweaty feet!!"
"I know...."

As Tom Cruise so famously said in Top Gun.... "Slider... *sniff*... you stink." 


Sunday, January 24, 2021

Minority

COVID19 - School Closure - Day 157  School Reopens - Day 146

Had fellowship tonight. Maybe due to recent events... maybe due to my own doing for introducing the topic... but man... I'm the minority in this group... at this church!! The things they say... the things they believe in!! Seriously?!?! Geez!!! And I can't say anything... I don't think... cuz it might lead to huge arguments and probable loss of friendship and fellowship.  Sigh.... to be in the minority.  Heh... 

Saturday, January 23, 2021

Order to Go

 COVID19 - School Closure - Day 157  School Reopens - Day 145

A dear friend of ours, his wife and his son came down with COVID.  As a church family... we banded together to deliver them meals. When I saw sign up list... I jumped on right away.  This family has selflessly served so many people over the years.  Their children have been a constant in Children and Youth ministries.  They're a pillar of our church.  It's the least I can do.  

Heh... after I signed up... I started wondering.... will they see my name and go, "Uhhhh..... can we have some real chefs sign up please???"  Heh...

I put a lot of thought into it.  I even sampled the food along the way to ensure it was palatable.  I never do that for the fam.... I just cook and they get what they get.  It was an honor to serve this family.  I dropped off the Order to Go, busted a U and was headed home when the dad came out to wave.  So nice seeing my brother in Christ.  

And as I was heading home I realized... wait... I forgot to make rice!!!  They have a bunch of food and dessert... but they'll have to make rice and wait another 30-45 minutes.  Oops!! Rookie mistake. 


Wednesday, January 20, 2021

The Hill We Climb

Recited by Amanda Gorman at the 2021 Presidential Inauguration Ceremony

The Hill We Climb
by Amanda Gorman 

When day comes we ask ourselves,
where can we find light in this never-ending shade?
The loss we carry,
a sea we must wade
We've braved the belly of the beast
We've learned that quiet isn't always peace
And the norms and notions
of what just is
Isn't always just-ice
And yet the dawn is ours
before we knew it
Somehow we do it
Somehow we've weathered and witnessed
a nation that isn't broken
but simply unfinished
We the successors of a country and a time
Where a skinny Black girl
descended from slaves and raised by a single mother
can dream of becoming president
only to find herself reciting for one
And yes we are far from polished
far from pristine
but that doesn't mean we are
striving to form a union that is perfect
We are striving to forge a union with purpose
To compose a country committed to all cultures, colors, characters and
conditions of man
And so we lift our gazes not to what stands between us
but what stands before us
We close the divide because we know, to put our future first,
we must first put our differences aside
We lay down our arms
so we can reach out our arms
to one another
We seek harm to none and harmony for all
Let the globe, if nothing else, say this is true:
That even as we grieved, we grew
That even as we hurt, we hoped
That even as we tired, we tried
That we'll forever be tied together, victorious
Not because we will never again know defeat
but because we will never again sow division
Scripture tells us to envision
that everyone shall sit under their own vine and fig tree
And no one shall make them afraid
If we're to live up to our own time
Then victory won't lie in the blade
But in all the bridges we've made
That is the promise to glade
The hill we climb
If only we dare
It's because being American is more than a pride we inherit,
it's the past we step into
and how we repair it
We've seen a force that would shatter our nation
rather than share it
Would destroy our country if it meant delaying democracy
And this effort very nearly succeeded
But while democracy can be periodically delayed
it can never be permanently defeated
In this truth
in this faith we trust
For while we have our eyes on the future
history has its eyes on us
This is the era of just redemption
We feared at its inception
We did not feel prepared to be the heirs
of such a terrifying hour
but within it we found the power
to author a new chapter
To offer hope and laughter to ourselves
So while once we asked,
how could we possibly prevail over catastrophe?
Now we assert
How could catastrophe possibly prevail over us?
We will not march back to what was
but move to what shall be
A country that is bruised but whole,
benevolent but bold,
fierce and free
We will not be turned around
or interrupted by intimidation
because we know our inaction and inertia
will be the inheritance of the next generation
Our blunders become their burdens
But one thing is certain:
If we merge mercy with might,
and might with right,
then love becomes our legacy
and change our children's birthright
So let us leave behind a country
better than the one we were left with
Every breath from my bronze-pounded chest,
we will raise this wounded world into a wondrous one
We will rise from the gold-limbed hills of the west,
we will rise from the windswept northeast
where our forefathers first realized revolution
We will rise from the lake-rimmed cities of the midwestern states,
we will rise from the sunbaked south
We will rebuild, reconcile and recover
and every known nook of our nation and
every corner called our country,
our people diverse and beautiful will emerge,
battered and beautiful
When day comes we step out of the shade,
aflame and unafraid
The new dawn blooms as we free it
For there is always light,
if only we're brave enough to see it
If only we're brave enough to be it

Saturday, January 16, 2021

Agony

COVID19 - School Closure - Day 157  School Reopens - Day 138

At deepest moment of the night... my abdomen hollered from a piercing, twisting pain.  The pain was so bad... so deep... so debilitating, I barely got out of bed and crawled to the bathroom.  My knees were weak.  I was half awake. My senses were whacked. I was disoriented and operating solely on instinct to find the toilet.  When I finally sat down on the icy cold bowl... I was jackknifed in torment that I started to hyperventilate... short on breath.  I needed to sit back up to get air into my lungs...but the pain snapped by body shut.  I stole an inch here or there from the jaws of life to steal a quick gasp of oxygen and slammed back down in agony.  Nothing was coming out... it wasn't that type of pain.  But instinctively... I had to be on the toilet.  Was it appendicitis??? Is this what labor feels like?? Or what women go through every month? Why is this happening????  As the slamming throb became a prickly sting... I slowly came to some consciousness.  I was able to squeeze something out to pass whatever needs passing... and in the dark, in my wooziness... I searched and discovered a whole new function of the bidet. "Ohhhhhh!!!.... so that's what that buttons for!!!" 



Wednesday, January 13, 2021

我们会随时为您服务

COVID19 - School Closure - Day 157  School Reopens - Day 135

We took the plunge at bought a Karaoke machine from China... fairly advanced one.  Touch screen, online database, nearly endless inventory.  But it was a leap of faith.. what if something went wrong? How do you ship it back? What if I had a question? How to deal with customer service? Do I call long distance? Speak in Mandarin?

That moment... I felt a huge rush of shame.  That I would need someone to translate for me to speak to Chinese customer service.  Sigh... To my relief... customer service is done through Whatsapp!  Ohhhh what a wonderful experience.

It was free.  They responded right away... 9AM my time which was 1AM their time... assuming they're in China.  Via text...they were so prompt.  So polite.  Almost 180 when compared to Tech Support at work. 

[9:16 AM] ANZ: 您还有别的问题吗?

[9:16 AM] H: 谢谢你

[9:16 AM,] ANZ: 不客气的

[9:16 AM] ANZ: 有问题可以随时联系我们

[9:16 AM] H: 现今没有。

[9:16 AM] ANZ: 我们会随时为您服务

Tuesday, January 12, 2021

Technology

COVID19 - School Closure - Day 157  School Reopens - Day 134

At the checkout line... as the cashier was ringing me up... I screamed, "Wait! Stop." I realized I didn't have my wallet with me.  The dude was cool... he'll finish ringing me up and keep the cart on the side.  

So I ran to my car... and sped through the parking lot while heading home to grab my wallet.  Came to a screeching halt and busted a you-ey when I realized... I have my phone!! I have Apple Pay!!

Ran back in.... asked if they accepted Apple Pay.  Which they did.

They pulled my receipt, rang me up and darn it..... I didn't have enough Apple Cash!!!  Was about $20 short.

So I rushed back out... and was about to jump in my car when.... wait a minute... I can borrow $20 Apple Cash from someone!!!  But who....??  

It was around 4:30.... Hody is still working.  Can't call her.  Called Geoff.... no answer.  (Jerk! What if I had a real emergency!!)  Called Big Bro... he doesn't use Apple Pay.  Probably an Alipay user.  Then I called my monument... he who shall never move (or be moved).... Andersen.

Heh... got my $20.  Ran back in.... and waited in line for 15 minutes cuz someone was buying a money order!! 

Anyhoo... what a world we live in.  And China... on top of WeChat and AliPay are gonna pilot digital currency.  Why not??? This is the 21st year of the 21st century, afterall.

Oh...btw... both Anderson and Joyce schooled me later that I should link Apple Pay to my credit card.  Duh....

Heh... technology.... 

Monday, January 11, 2021

If I had to go...

COVID19 - School Closure - Day 157  School Reopens - Day 133

After Wednesday's whole ordeal... I felt I needed to demonstrate some patriotism.  So I went to Lucky's and grabbed a six pack of Budweiser.  As I grabbed the carton... I accidentally knocked over a 3-pack cans of Budweiser and sent it crashing to the ground to which it popped... and started spraying all over the place.  I was... literally... for the first time in my life... taking a beer shower!!

Had that thing hit me on the head and send me to the floor... that would probably be how I'd wanna go.  Well, maybe not Budweiser.  But y'know what I mean... 


Sunday, January 10, 2021

I sleep at the same time

COVID19 - School Closure - Day 157  School Reopens - Day 132

One week long... one week strong.  33 more days to go.

I'm still amazed... every night... we have consistently 4-5 families that join.  We encountered our first trials on Friday and Saturday nights... when some families are busy.  I was especially nervous on Saturday when it was just me and Kit-Yuk.  But y'know... when it was just me and Stan... or just me and Joshua on FOTA... we prayed fervently for an hour.  

Kinda cool that Ken shared tonight... that initially... he didn't reply to my email because he was in disbelief.  And he was trying to find a way to say no.  Thank goodness he didn't... because this test of faith is for more than just me.  He goes on to say that... every night, for the past 7 days, he still sleeps at the same time.  He still gets the same things done.  So he starts wondering... if he didn't pray for those 20 minutes... where would that time have gone?

The novelty has worn off.  Now's the time to really see who's in this for the long haul.  

One week long... one week strong.  33 more days to go.  

Saturday, January 09, 2021

The student is greater than the master

 COVID19 - School Closure - Day 157  School Reopens - Day 131

Regardless of badminton... Super Smash Brothers... or Beyblades... I can't beat SW anymore.  He's faster... more agile... thinks quicker... reacts quicker.  Watching my son grow up so fast... so soon.  While my body slowly dies away.  

There was an odd moment tonight though... were I just stared at him for a good minute.  And he stared back.  He probably thought it was a blinking contest (or don't blink contest).  In actuality.. I was trying to see... who is this boy that's grown up so fast? He's my flesh and blood... but in a surreal way... I actually didn't know who I was staring at.  

Friday, January 08, 2021

Still reeling

COVID19 - School Closure - Day 157  School Reopens - Day 130

2 days after the storming of the Capitol.... and I'm still reeling.  The news is showing that one by one... the stormers of the Capitol are being arrested and charged.  Why they didn't arrest them on the spot... I have no idea.  Laptops were stolen from the Capitol.  DC is downplaying this... but what kind of data were stored in there? Hawley..  the bold senator from Missouri who objected to the Electoral College votes lost a book deal and is being asked to resign.  Of course... 50% of America is making him into a hero. Facebook and IG has suspended Trump's account.  Twitter has permanently banned him.  And what does Trump do...? He Tweets from the @POTUS account... continuing to incite division.  Talks of impeachment and 25th Amendment is all over the place. I doubt either will happen... nor do I think it should at this moment in time.  But our government has surprised us before.

America needs healing. Healing isn't passive, it's active.  We need to move forward as a country to a better place.  We mustn't look forward to Jan 20th - the Inauguration.  It's not in Biden or Harris we trust.  Healing can start any moment.  It can start now.  

Will you get down on your knees and pray with me?

Thursday, January 07, 2021

270

COVID19 - School Closure - Day 157  School Reopens - Day 129

We all knew Jan 6th will be a day of infamy.  But not like this.

We had all hoped for a peaceful transfer of power. We had prayed for a drama-free George Run-off.  We wished that people aren't doing things just for a political power pose in prepping for 2022 or 2024.  But it all happened.

The Rotunda, where we stood not more than 2 years ago, with statues honoring the likes of Rosa Parks and Martin Luther King, was desecrated today by domestic terrorists.  And all those hooligans... walked in to the capitol freely and walked out freely.  Where is justice?  Where is democracy? Where is civility? 

The joint session was delayed.  Then delayed again for objections.  I was hoping the kids can stay up for "270" but Pennsylvania happened.  2 hours later... after a colorful display of speech-reading, Congress got back together.  Ironically... it was Vermont.  The tiny little state that was first declared for Biden on Election Night, that pushed him over the hump.  

I'm tired.  I'm sad.  I wept.  Yet... there is hope.  Not in Biden.  Not in Kamala.  Not in the Democratic Congress.  I have hope in my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.  

God, bless America. 


Sunday, January 03, 2021

Of such little faith...

 COVID19 - School Closure - Day 157  School Reopens - Day 125

Church kicked off a 40 day prayer journey today and I had the whim to start a 40 day (night) Prayer Altar.  I asked a few people to co-lead this with me... got 2 response.  The other people aren't responding cuz they're too busy? (it's vacation...and the weekend) or they didn't see it? Can't they even give me the courtesy of a "No?"  A no response means what?

At 7:30PM, Ken sent out a text reminding everyone about this.  Good... Ken and Hody were gonna show up.  Around 8:25PM... I started getting nervous. What if it's just me? Sigh... 

8:28PM - I log in and started playing background music.  Joyce is at the couch playing with her phone.  

Tic-toc, tic-toc... 

8:29PM.  At the very least.. I can pray by myself.  That's what Jesus did for 40 days and 40 nights.

Tic-toc... tic-toc...

8:30PM.  Joyce walks around getting water.  She'll join me... I guess.  

Tic-toc... tic-toc....

8:31PM.  Joyce sits down.  I look at her and shake my head.  Sigh.... Husband and wife prayer altar.  That's a beautiful thing.

Tic-toc... tic-toc....

8:32PM.  Two minutes... people are normally 4-5 minutes late.  This is normal.  Ken and Hody will show up.  They always do.  

Tic-toc... tic-toc....

8:33PM.  I click on the participants list... "Henry (Host)".  Sigh.... Just another one of my crazy ideas.  People are busy.  They're putting their kids to sleep.  They're bathing their kids.  They're eating.  People have a routine.  I think to myself... should I have polled everyone?? Should I have gotten a majority to agree on the time??

Tic-toc...tic-toc....

8:34PM.  *BING*  Joyce gets a text.  Then another. Then another.  "They can't get in."  

CRAP!! I did it again.  Must've sent out the wrong link.  Hate doing that.  Then I get screenshots.  Then I get a text saying the link in Whatsapp is different than in the email (People read the email?!?!?)  

Tic-toc... Tic-toc.... 

8:35PM.  Re-sent new link.  Didn't know what happened... got 5 families online!! With a 6th struggling, but joining.  

Started late.  Ended late.  I hate being late.  I hate going long.  I hate breaking my promise of "15-20 minutes."  Was about to cut it short after 2 rounds... but not tonight.  Not the first night.  Not when the Holy Spirit is saying... "It's worth it.  I'm worth it."  

Final round of prayers... I started weeping.  One by one, we declared our sonship and daughtership.  And as I wrapped it up... my voice started to crack.  Ohhhhh... of such little faith.  Eden Fellowship.  We may seem disjointed.  Dis-interested.  Dis-combobulated.  But Eden... are all children of God.  

Amen.  

39 nine days to go.  Will we finish our journey??? 

Saturday, January 02, 2021

x1.25 Speed

COVID19 - School Closure - Day 157  School Reopens - Day 125

One of the best inventions of the past 3 years has gotta be the usage of x1.25 speed for podcasts. Today... I found that it’s been moved over to Netflix also!! BOOM!! 30 minute episode of Cobra Kai done in 20 minutes!!